Foolhardy

Insanity

B. a foolish or senseless actionpolicy,statement, etc


At what point is it enough? I’ve tried.  Over & over.  I’ve tried to understand the reasoning, I’ve tried to compromise,  I’ve tried to evoke change by force.  

Nothing.

Has.

Worked. 

NOTHING. At what point does the continuousness of this cycle become insanity? The empty words,  the broken promises.

The LIES. 

I’m pretty sure it takes a special kind of person to be able to look someone directly in the face& lie. Just straight up lie. You lied when you said you loved me, you lied when you said your vows. You lied when you said it would Never Happen Again….but it did.

 With VanessaCrystalDominqueVanessaTheTinderBitchAdiyahCourtney..and on and on and on. And ON.

 How much more do I have to endure? What more can i do…?  You say you love me…until i find the craigslists ads and messages from bitch numero uno. In your old cracked phone. On the textfree app. 

Can I leave yet?

Why am I even here? 

Why are you here? 

I’m not rich or famous. I don’t live in a great big house & my credit sucks. You have no reason to stay….so why do you? You’ve proven over& over that they are more important to you than me. So… what is it? 

When is enough enough…?

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It’s been over a year since I’ve written….so many updates. I’m married & miserable…still incapable of dealing with my ridiculous emotions. 
Guess less has changed than i thought.